I was blessed to be born into a Christian family and have been in church since before I took my first breath. My parents were actually missionaries when I was born before my dad joined the Navy. Faith is in my blood. That being said as a Christian I shouldn’t have difficulty with the passing of a fellow Believer. After all, they are going home to be with our Savior, so why should those of us left on earth be sad?
Even though I am a Christian and have been for nearly two decades, every time I lose a loved one or a friend I am devastated. That is why I began a journey through the book, Grieving with Hope, with my besties this month. The truth is that I know that I do not handle grief well as a Christian. So, I want to learn how to grieve for those that have left this earth but still have hope because I will see them again some day.
The more that I find myself thinking about heaven, I realize that I’m beginning to truly take to heart the fact that my loved ones are waiting for me in the place that we always talked about wanting to be. They’re already seeing what we could only imagine together here on this earth. While my heart longs for them to be back here with me, I know without a doubt that they don’t want to be. They have entered our promised land. They are in forever.
I’ve come to a place where I am not devastated that my loved ones are in heaven…most of the time. Instead I’m just sad. Sad because throughout life I have questions I want to ask them when I’m in need of wisdom. Sad because of choices I regret from our time together on earth. Mostly I’m sad because I want to be with them.
I’ve reached the place where I realize that I’m ready to fly. Yet, I’m still here and I’m striving to discover what that means for me.
I don’t know what the next part of my journey looks like, but it is one I’m ready to begin. My heart yearns to serve the Lord and worship Him beautifully with every single breath that I take.
I know that God still has a plan for me and that my story isn’t over.
I’m ready to fly…but I’m still grounded so I’m going to learn how to soar while the ground is beneath my feet.
