Today my heart is broken. I can’t catch my breath and memories keep flooding through my mind. Memories of times gone by filled with laughter shared, big dreams spoken out loud, loving embraces and tears shed over shattered moments of the past.

I wonder how differently I would live my life if I was aware of the very moments I needed to say goodbye. Would I take the opportunity to say how much I loved them or would I sit down and cry because of the very thought of them not being with me in my tomorrows?

Today my heart is broken. Because I don’t understand why. No chance to say goodbye to my best friend. A moment I didn’t know was coming that was cause for words I didn’t know needed to be said.

I wonder if she knew how much I truly loved her. Though the last few months of what now seems like unimportant life busyness kept our relationship quiet. Oh the opportunities that were lost to share in special moments that I knew meant so, so very much.

Today my heart is broken. My friend has gone away and I don’t have the right words to say. All I can think is that there was no chance to say goodbye. No time for one last ‘I love you’ to be spoken.

I wonder how to make sure she is a part of my tomorrows. I can’t bear to have her…her smile, laughter and love for family and Jesus live only in my yesterdays.

Today my heart is broken because there was no chance to say goodbye.